Sunday, January 6, 2013

The WORD for 2013



 Do you have a word for 2013?

I told you in the last post that I am not doing traditional resolutions this year.  Yes, I have a quiet little list in my head--things that I know will be so good for me to do, dreams and goals that I have of course, and things that I know must...MUST...change this year to make it the best year ever! I call it a 'quiet' list because I am not allowing it to nag me--I am taking it one day at a time without pressure.

Then there is the word for 2013...one word for 2013. Being a girl of many words, (all-the-time... ask French Guy---I talk A-LOT...when I am not writing or thinking of words to write--in 3 journals, or on 3 blogs or on that novel that is going to make me rich and famous in 2013...  ah--but you get the idea.) So you might think coming up with just one to be the true, all encompassing word might be tough, but ironically, no.  It came easily--thanks to a great writer, author ..... 

.... Goddess of words---Anne Lamott.

My word for 2013 is COURAGE. Here is why.... first there are some great opposites--the ways I don't want to be; fearful, cowardess, timidity, weak, defeated.... and synonomous words of inspiration related to it; bravery, strength, steadfast, determined.....

Next--courage is the same word in French and English--hence no need to have two words in 2013.  I can't tell you what it has meant to me in the past when my father in law has firmly taken me by the shoulders and looked into my eyes and said 'Bon courage ma belle'..... for situations that may have in the moment seem insurmountable.  His words gave me courage--showed me he understood.... I took it..that small piece of courage and put it to good use.

And as long as we are on the topic of 'French'.... courage will be seriously applied to one of my most major (and unexpected) struggles since re-locating to France---French---speaking French!  No, it has not come easily--I do not dream in French ....yet.... and I quickly tire of appearing like a complete idiot and trying to speak French... I have become very shy, very timid, very embarrassed.... almost. every.  day.  It is hard to be that way.  So no longer mes amis---courage will be applied....thickly.  I will not care if I sound like a Spanish cow when I open my mouth---I will not be humbled by correction over and over by my family---or strangers--I will try, try and try again.  I will not go sit in my car and get all teary after being completely humiliated by an unkind person who insults me for being American...living here....not speaking French.  I will be brave, determined..... I will have courage... to be an idiot or sound like one... until I am not.  (But I seriously hope that is soon!)

Next---courage application-- courage to be true and authentic.... and not always perfect. This one I will expand more on in the coming weeks.  There are two writers/bloggers wonderful thoughtful human beings that I stumbled upon recently that have knocked my socks off with authenticity.... calling it like it is---no sugar coating....while still being incredibly inspiring and up-lifting and I want to share more about them and the things I have learned from them in short time since finding their blogs...

Lastly--and the HUGE one.  Courage is best applied to your weakest and most vulnerable place in your heart.... for me it is my children.  This is where--in 2013 I will need the most COURAGE....ever....it is the toughest thing in my life.  

Here goes....with a big dose of the aforementioned "authentic and true me"....  My littlest, who turns two years old this week, is soon to be diagnosed officially with Autism.  It is the hardest thing for me to write about.  She is my third child and my second who has Autism.  It takes courage to even talk about it---I do not expect most of you to get any of this--what it is like as a parent, why it scares the heck out of me and breaks my heart, why it brings me to my knees....how on some days we are good and feel 'normal' and blessed and on others I am so full of grief that I cannot see straight.

 It's a hard road--- and the one that I need the most courage to go down again....courageously.

So here is what Anne Lamott wrote---the quote that gave me my word for 2013.

"Courage is fear that has said it's prayers".   
 Exactly..... and amen!

And a verse of inspiration that I will cling to...

Deuteronomy 31:6
"Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid .... for the LORD your God is the one who goes with you. He will not fail you...."

Happy New Year mes amis
 I am taking a 5 day break from the web/Facebook/Twitter and ....gasp! Instagram!---  well maybe not Instagram----okay yes Instagram too!  Sheesh...

to re-stock the shop and work on a few projects that I can't wait to share ...  and to fully embrace all that this amazing year has in store for us!

xx! More soon.... !



14 comments:

  1. That is a wonderful word and so fitting as you explained.I cannot imagine living in any other country.Oh I would LOVE to travel the world someday and visit outside.But to learn a different culture and language must be very hard.As it is for others coming here and learning English! I think we all get stuck in what is our world and forget how challenging it is for others.Thank you for sharing this!
    xx
    Anne

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    1. Thank you Anne! It is very true--you can get very comfortable in your 'normal' world--and forget that we all have our challenges in life and home!--no matter how much we embrace the difference!

      xx
      Cat

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  2. Thank you for your heartfelt post... you used courage to write it, I'm sure. I feel for your difficulties.. both with the language and your child... but you sound strong and determined to manage both challenges. I sincerely wish you well in your journey ahead, hugs,
    jenni

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    1. Thanks Jenni! Your encouragement means a lot to me!

      xx!

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  3. Cat - bon courage! Not only will you get through - your life will be richer. We have disabilities in our family - Down Syndrome, depression and bipolar disorder. Life is much, much harder when you have something extra to cope with but it weaves a finer tapestry when the stitches are not all the same. J

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    1. Merci Julie! I know you understand--the joys and the challenges---and the joys--a rich life indeed. Thanks so much for sharing and for your encouragement.

      xx--Happy 2013!

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  4. I love the word that you've chosen! I'm loathe to pick one for the same reason that I don't want to do a New Year's resolution!
    But I understand the importance of it and how it can help.
    Find your strength in family and friends, nothing is insurmountable! You seem to have an inner spirit that will serve you well, even when you think you have been deserted......and please know that He watches us at all times, especially in times of need, and you are not alone.
    Keep close watch over your babies and they will thrive, despite what others say.........no one knows a child better than his own mother..........I wish you well and love your blog. I'm so glad that I put you on my favorites.

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    1. Thank you so for your support and understanding! I do think that it is going to be an amazing courage-filled year!

      Bonne Annee a vous!

      xx!

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  5. Thank you for this post, Cat. I needed this Bible verse this morning. What an authentic and heartfelt thing to share with us. May your year be filled with blessings. Prayers to you my friend.

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  6. My word for 2013 is trust. I love that verse in Deuteronomy you posted. I'm so delighted to "meet" you through Instagram and am now following you here. Praying for you and your precious little children.

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    1. Thank you so much Elizabeth! I feel like I already know you from IG. Trust is a wonderful word....and I think trust plays a very big role in courage too!

      xx!

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  7. Ah, Cat - I missed this post the first time 'round, so I only just caught up on your Petite Fille news. I'm sending you extra courage and love. Please let me know if you ever want to talk about raising girls on the spectrum - I'm a few years ahead of you on that, and there are some differences I've found between my girl's needs and those of her ASD boy friends. xx

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    1. Thanks Rebecca! I appreciate that so much and have thought many times to send you a note! Just sent you a message!

      xx Cat

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